13.01.23

You came to me in my dreams. We shared tender moments of laughter, apologies and intermacy. I felt forgiveness. I felt happiness. I felt sad when I woke and realised that I don't really know him anymore. I know it's for the best of course. There's still a bit of me that holds on to hope that one day, later in life, we might just cross paths again. 

I feel he reappeared after talking to Robs about him and how I still dream about him every now and then. She said the same about a guy she was with for a while. 

I still hope that people meet in their dreams. Perhaps he remembered his this morning, he probably didn't. I do wonder if he thinks about him the way I do about him, not in a longing way but whenever I hear a song on the radio or a movie I think he'd like. I just, wish him well and only want him to be happy. Life has moved on as it naturally does. But there will always be a special place in my heart from him and he will always be there. I still feel glad that we had what we had when we did. I learned a lot and know that everything happens for a reason. There are things I'd do differently if I were to do it all again but I know where I am now is where I should be.