It's been a tough day today, particularly the evening. I found a little spot in the bedroom and allowed myself to cry and cry. My body feels so tired and I feel no connection to Will at all. We're just not in sinc, like we're worlds apart. I doubt he thinks this, he probably thinks I'm being moody or difficult (which I am.) That's okay though, I'm sure we will be better tomorrow. But this moment, I just want to run away from everything. I want to be by the sea and walk for miles and miles.
Tomorrow is a new day, it is not often that I feel like this. I had a vaccine today which is probably what's making me feel extra emotional and work has been uncomfortable while I still try and find my footing. I remain uncertain about how I feel about it all but at least I have a bit of an end point. I've just got to give it a bit more time.
I hope to escape into sleep soon and tomorrow start again afresh.
Baby is moving about lots though which is really lovely and reassuring to see and to feel. 25 weeks tomorrow.
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