08.06.20

Time marches on. My knees still feel weak and my soul feels sore but, today is a new day and I got through it. Worst time of my life, without a doubt. But, I got through it. 

I think I'm going to be okay. My body is a beautiful and amazing thing, it's recovering from everything I've put it through and will be ready to bounce back like it's done so many times before. I never want to put it through what I put it through ever again, but I hope that in a few days I'll feel stronger as a result. I hope to move on with my life and look forward to new, exciting things. I must not dwell, I'm only doing what I think is right and I've got to trust myself that everything will be OK in the end. I will get to where I want to be, I've just got to take it one step at a time for now. 

I will get through this, I've just got to let me body heal, let my soul heal, I need above all to be kind to myself. Its time I started to apologise to myself in nice ways, like eating well, taking care of myself, getting exercise, just living as best as I can. I'm not even 30 yet, I'm not old, it will happen for me I've just got to believe. A lot can happen in a year. A lot can happen in 6 months even. 

I've just got to have faith.