Tired, sad and grilled today. I'm clumsy, stumbling into everything I'll be covered in bruises in a couple of days with no idea where they originated. My skin is a mess, covered in insect bites and spots from last weekends antics. No good time comes without consequences, this time my mood hasn't only been the thing effected.
I want to buy things but cannot, as I am completely broke. Working out finances yesterday, I'm unable to live in my current flat on the wage i'm on. I'm not surprised, as i've spent the past two months in my overdraft for the first time since I was a student. But that's coupled with having a social life. It's a sad truth, and one i'm not ready to face yet.
I didn't have much time to let yesterdays's session sink in, as work carried me away with the usual tedium. But today I know there's a lot to unpack and think about.
Feel lonely again, and in need of comfort. No longer so I feel the gushing happiness I did before, I feel as though i'm right back to square one again.
What am I doing?
Lost.
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