My body hurts, I feel so blue, I just want to cry.
I feel so nauseous. Perhaps it was stress earlier this month that's brought things on early. I suppose it's solved issues I was originally worried about but, one does start to grow attached to a crazy idea if brings you a little closer to something you dearly want.
But no, I want to go about it the right way and yesterday wasn't right at all. Perhaps it'll never happen at all. Perhaps I'll never find peace. I know i'm young but sometimes it just feels as though it'll never come my way.
He was so beautiful, so handsome, I couldn't believe him sitting across from me, talking with me for hours and hours, let alone staying the night. I didn't think I was going to hear from him again but to read a nice message from him saying he wanted to meet again really made me feel better.
But then the afternoon crashes down on me as I currently sit in discomfort and I dream about leaving everything behind.
I think about the things I love in my life, everything and everyone I have loved. It keeps me hoping that things will get better. I know they will, I know i'm just being overly dramatic and it's just hormones...Just wish I had someone to cuddle when I get home...
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