Last night was a little disappointing. I had a lovely time but he got too drunk and started groping me inappropriately in a full-on public place - the most forward I've ever known anyone to be. I was so surprised, he seemed so nice. I mean, he was but, his intentions seemed to only be sexual. It was very aggressive. I am sure we would have had a great time and it was a little tempting after 5 or so gin and tonics but...I wasn't that desperate. All his 'I really like you, I'm in that place to find someone I want to settle down with,' was just filler. I haven't heard for him today, I doubt I ever will again. No messages, but I do have bruises...
I've got a half day today, decided to treat myself to a bit of time to relax. Hopefully I'm seeing Josh this evening, though I am a little nervous. I'm not really sure why, just, my thoughts really, ganging up on me. I've been weighing up things with only myself and i've been making assumptions without his reasoning. Perhaps we should talk about things but i'm not sure I want to just yet. I'm not ready for serious chat. I might give it another month or two, perhaps it'll come up naturally, who knows.
I'm too tired, i'm just very anxious. I need to give myself some space to chill out...
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