The gig last night was fun, I had a good time. It was nice to be there with him but I am doubtful. It's all very early days right now of course, nothing has been said or anything it's just a feeling I have.
I'm tired, I haven't a lot of energy today and I suppose I feel a little blue as my hormones are kicking in again for 'that time,' I reckon that has a lot to do with my thoughts and reflections. It always does. Maybe i'm just 'checking myself' too much. I'm not sure. I'm tempted to go on some other dates, just to see how I feel in comparison. I know that's not fair for anyone, though. Because i'm sure I'll feel excited when I meet someone new and that wouldn't be the right scenario to compare against. It also feels dishonest. I know that i'm not doing anything wrong by contemplating another date, even going on one would be fine. How would I feel if it were the other way around though?
It's difficult because, he's so cute and I do really like him alot. I think he must be very self-conscious and rather awkward as a result. I do a lot of the work when it comes to conversation which works well for now and he seems to enjoy it, we laugh a lot, but it is tiring and i'm not sure it's something I could keep doing. I hope that he'll relax more around me and feel more able to chat about whatever he likes but hmm, perhaps this is just...it.
We'll see. I feel guilty saying that, it could just be the mood i'm in. I hope he has a nice time with me too, I think that he does...
Well, this evening I plan on having an evening to chill by myself, maybe have an early night then I'll drive home tomorrow for the day. I believe me and Josh are meeting to do something on Sunday, i'm not sure what yet exactly but we'll see.
I think I may just start dating my entries, I struggle to come up with titles that don't make me cringe to read back later on...
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