This bit is the hardest bit...I really, really struggle to adapting to the new change. Waking up 'single' feels terribly wrong for me. Every single person will tell me how I need time to recuperate, give myself some time to breath, let everything sink in and respond to that in time. My instant reaction is to throw myself into something new as soon as the opportunity arises, for time alone will be time to cry, time to wallow in self pity and regret. I know that I need to let myself feel those things, in order to move forward. Perhaps doing this will help quell the possibility of missing someone later down the line. I'm frightened of letting those sad emotions take me over, when i'm in a place on my own. I worry it'll hit me too hard.
I just want to call him. I want to take it all back. Suddenly the things that irritated me before I miss, I want them, I just want him and everything to be back to normal. Why can't I revisit my past self, from only a month ago?
What happened? Why am I like this? Will I continue in this cycle for the rest of my life?
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It takes time. It can even take a long time. For me, one relationship took me 8 years to get over. Looking back, I wasted eight good years pining for someone who just did not feel the same about me. I think it's damn hard to get over someone. But I think mostly it's not even so much the person that is hard to get over. It's the routine that we miss. We miss doing the things that we used to do with someone. The good times. My last relationship took me a while to get over as well, even though I had the lesson of the 8 year one. I can't even really say that I am over it yet, but it does get easier. You just have to take care of yourself, throw yourself into a new project or goal. Even start to date others (but not seriously). The point is to fill your time with other things. Or sometimes you do need to let yourself grieve. Watch sad movies and cry your heart out. Doing that makes you feel better as well.
Best wishes.
Aw Nova, thank you so much for your lovely kind words, reading them brought a tear to my eye. To stop by and comment on a strangers post with such thoughtful advise really means a lot to me. I'm going to take a bit of time out for myself and just try to take every day at a time.
Thanks again, and all the best to you too.
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