Starting to feel more well

All things considered, I'm feeling pretty good. Normally i'd be feeling sluggish, emotional and frustrated. Of course, there is still time for this, but for now i'm enjoying the feeling...'normal.'

Maybe it's the sunny weather. Perhaps it's the slight increase of exercise the past couple of weeks. Maybe it's the lack of chocolate? It could all be a placebo but I like to think it's a little bit of everything. I need to start taking better care of myself. I want to be as well as I can be.

I'm a bit out of practice writing about things that I feel positive and happy about these days, there's usually so much that could be complained about and dwelled upon. This morning I heard back from a flat that me and Mike went to see where she said that she'd let it to someone else and I felt absolutely fine about it. I knew it as we walked away that it was a little too good to be true. I'd made my peace as we deliberated how we'd manage it financially and just knew that the search wasn't over. It will continue, but not yet. I'm going to give myself this week to relax. I don't feel as big a sense of urgency as I did before, I suppose now that everyone is on the same page I don't feel as though I need to pretend that i'm having a blast all the time. I no longer feel guilty about spending a lot of time either out or upstairs in my room. I'm going through a week of enjoying my tiny little space. It's cosy and houses all my belongings nicely.

I will move out eventually, and I suppose I feel a sense of relief knowing that now but I'm sensing that perhaps right now isn't the best time to be doing so. If I can try and stay for another month or two it at least gives me the opportunity to save a little, to contribute to the enormous fees that will need to be coughed up at short notice. I'm also aware that my car will need servicing in soon which I've no doubt will be costly. So yeah, it can't be a bad thing to take stock and let things naturally fall into place. It's certainly a rare occurrence when it comes to houses and flats but who knows. I just don't want to be moving to somewhere worse that will end up costing me a lot more money, then regret the decision. It's not so terrible, I'm warm in that place, the facilities are good and nice. Who knows, perhaps me & Mike will get a place together in the end...