I want to wear, care and repair

I'm feeling a little more myself this morning, thankfully. I walked to work feeling relatively lighter and more able to look up and take in my surroundings. 'This is how normal people must feel,' I wondered to myself as I noticed snow lightly sweeping the air. Would many people say that they feel normal? I suppose one has only got oneself to compare to. 

I watched a documentary last night, called 'The True Cost' and found it incredibly eye-opening and quite frankly, disgusting. Much like the way I felt after watching 'Blackfish' (another amazing/insightful/sad/shattering documentary) I sat stunned afterwards. I like to think that i'm pretty 'woke' to what's going on behind our high-street fashion brands, how rolling out new garments every other week has to be costing a lot more than what's on the price tag. But it still shocked me to the core. I don't want to sound preachy here, but how on earth did we let it get to this? How did fast fashion get to where it is now? Disposable fashion - wear it once then through it away, straight into landfill where it'll rot for hundreds of years. We're destroying our planet and other people's lives. I feel so guilty for everything i've bought over the years 'because it's cheap' - goodness, I shudder now at the thought. Why isn't this more widely known, why aren't we being educated about this at school!? 

In recent years, I've made more of an effort to buy only second-hand (charity shops & Ebay,) more from the point of view that I don't much like current trends and miss older designs. Although as I mentioned at the start of the year, i'll be doing no more of that throughout all of 2019. But to be honest, I don't want to step foot in another high-strand fashion store. Moving forward I only want to purchase more ethical fashion, and only when absolutely essential. I want to wear, care and repair. 

I'm going to do some research...so I can sleep at night.