overwhelmed

One moment I feel so incredibly overwhelmed.
What if nobody takes my room?
What if I have to pay double rent?
What if i've got to borrow some money?
I'm so stressed. I want to cry.


The next moment I think;
Someone will take my room eventually. If I took it, someone else will.
Double rent will be killer but it's just money. One can always earn more money.
If I have to borrow then I will. Gotta do what I gotta do. None of it is the end of the world.


So much to do. So much to process.


Fuck.


Michael messaged though, which was nice. Just friendly questions back and forth, said last night was lovely, just light-hearted chat. He's put a smile on my face.
Got to try and take each day as it comes and not let everything get to me. I knew today would be stressful, but there's only 2 things left to go; room viewing (hopefully she'll absolutely love it,) and then to my brother's ex's. Once that's done, that'll be a huge load off. Maybe i'll have a day this week just for me. I'm in my overdraft, i'm so broke but I might have to buy myself some pizza or something low effort and high in short-term pleasure otherwise i'm going to run myself into the ground. I haven't been shopping in weeks it feels.

A day for many entries today...