Could be better

Friday is upon us at last. It feels as though it's been a long week and I feel tired. It's another beautiful sunny day outside and i'm sat at this familiar desk, awaiting the inevitable boredom to hit me and drag me below the surface. I hope i'll be proven wrong and that the day will actually go surprisingly fast, but I doubt it. Yesterday I was so bored, I left early but it took me a good hour or two to snap out of the mood, even once I was home.
I feel a bit odd not having anything lined up this evening, I feel like I should do. What am I going to do with myself? I suppose I could do some artwork, if i'm not as mind-numb as I was yesterday. Have a bit of 'me' time, get a relatively early night, catch up on sleep, but it feels boring.
My ability to mask/contain frustration has just completely gone out the window these past couple of days. It could be hormones, it has to be, i've just been in such a bad mood. Today is no different, I can't seem to mask it like I usually can. I feel grumpy. Don't want to be here. Don't want to be anywhere. Don't know what to do with myself. Hopefully this should pass as I plough on through this day...


Last night I took a look at a job application Phil sent to me to look over to help with the formatting. I did my best, but also added a few lil suggestions with wording which i'm not sure he really appreciated. But he said he did! It allowed me a look into this whole other world of his which all washes way over my head. Complex calculations, academia, funding, theories, amazing and fascinating stuff. I liked reading about his thesis and publications, it was all very impressive. I was surprised that he sent it so freely, with so much personal information on there (including his salary, not that it really bothered me. It just made me think about me and Chris and how he always kept his cards so close to his chest in that regard. I have a feeling that Phil is a lot more financially minded, not that it's any of my business. We had a nice chat on the phone, soon it was midnight. I always enjoy our calls. He's getting geared up for his weekend. I can't wait to see him next.