Setting up to fail

Went to a gig on Saturday, it was Chris's birthday present. Initially we both thought it would be awkward but it was actually a fun evening and I'm glad we both went.
I'm not feeling as upset but i'm feeling on edge about the upcoming changes. It's like we've endured this huge emotional change but the usual departure that comes after it hasn't happened so I feel as though i'm getting comfortable again in our surroundings. It's all very surreal. Still.

Andrew is proving to be a wonderful distraction. He was the first person I messaged on the first app I downloaded and i'm so happy I did, even if nothing comes from this, it's been so lovely getting to know him. We exchanged a couple of messages within the app but then he invited me to Whatsapp and gave me his number to which I wrote down and contacted him again. His reply to my breezy, chipper opener was a 4 paragraphed response of honesty; he hadn't been in a serious relationship before, he was at a career crossroads, he currently lived with his parents. Now, 'honesty' in respect to online dating is rather...well, it's all to be taken with a pinch of salt. I mean, I still haven't met this guy - it could all be an elaborate lie. But even so, he decided he wanted to tell me truthfully where he was in his life, and that's not an easy thing to do. He went on to say that now he was ready for commitment and wanted to get to know me more. I felt my heart lift inside my chest, I thanked him for his honesty and I really felt honored that he felt he could be so open with me. Since then, we've been exchanging detailed, lengthy exchanges all about music, our interests, food (he's vegan!) and general encouragement. It feels like such a real crush, I mean, he has been on my mind pretty much all of this week that we've been talking. I feel myself glow from within when I see his name appear on my screen. Then he asked me if I fancied going on a date with him sometime. Of course, I agreed, far too excitedly. And tomorrow evening, he's going to call me and we're going to...chat! I can't believe it, really.
I mean, the rational side of me is looking at all this thinking it's way too soon, he is only a distraction, it's unlikely he'll be what he says he'll be, the date (if it even happens,) will be exactly like that time I met that Dan guy where we had amazing chats leading up to it but in person, we didn't have anything to say. But the romantic side of me just loves him already. I'm already picturing myself snuggled up with him in bed smelling his lovely long hair. I mean...seriously?
But then again, why not? Why can't I think these things? Why does the cynical side of me assume that it'll all be a waste of time? There's just something about him that I really, really like. He's very handsome and yet he's a bit nerdy, he loves games and used to be a streamer, he used to snowboard and sounds as though he was pretty good at it. He's sent me amazing music recommendations and podcasts that really delve deep into big subjects and he's so expressive with his words...I am completely enamored by him, and I shouldn't be. I am so intrigued, and I shouldn't be. Surely I am setting myself up to fail.

But, I can't wait to speak to him tomorrow evening. You can tell a lot by a persons mannerisms on the phone.