28.2.18

Same page? 

Yesterday was spent trying to ignore the knot in my stomach but I knew that I had to face it, even though the timing was all wrong and I didn't plan what I wanted to say. 

I was ready for bed and that was when he called. We talked about our days and it was all fine, but I knew it was clear I was holding back and decided I had to tell him about my emailing the landlord. He was quiet, but he wasn't rude or angry. 'To be honest, I thought about doing the same thing,' he said. I was surprised but also relieved. 'Thank you for doing it,' he said kindly and although my body went cold I felt better for sharing. It was a lot to take in, of course and we didn't talk much after that. 'I'm too tired to think of a comeback to that right now' he said and I laughed, even though I feel like...this is really happening, I feel a little better that he reacted the way he did. 

We're going to talk more later this evening. 

I'm not sure what about, but...we're going to talk.

No comments:

22.10.24

Trying to hold it together, trying hard not to cry. Nothing has happened, it's just I feel very overwhelmed. Tired, deeply tired, to my ...