30.8.17

Nothing left to loose when there's nothing left to find 

Sigh, it's never straight forward. 

So the head honcho has had a think and realised that a new plug needs to be filled by a me-shaped shop floor sales person for one day a week. Now, I don't mind doing one day a week of course, it could be nice to break up the week and do something different. However, knowing them, knowing the characters, I know it won't be 'just one day' no, it'll be lunches, sick days, weekends, soon it'll be two days - I know this from experience in the past. 

So, of course I told my colleague 'no' but after thinking about it this morning, I can't let this opportunity slip through my fingers and I'll kick myself if he turns around and says 'okay in that case we can't take her back on'

I mean, I would be surprised but hey, this came as a surprise so you can never say never really. 

Maybe if I try it and find that I can't do it or I'm unable to get my other work done or, you know, it just doesn't feel right, then at least I gave it a go...who knows. I'll find out today what the low-down is, I pray that my boss will back my corner and believe I'm worth it, that I'm needed, that they want me, they truly want me for what I signed up for! So, fingers crossed oh god fingers crossed...

Another song discovery I can't help binge listen to over and over again, its positive, it's uplifting - let's hope this will carry through onto the head honchos decision! 

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