That familiar Sunday feeling is creeping in. I want to start a project but look at the time and realise that I can't because if I do, I'll enjoy it too much and it'll be too late, work is calling my attention already.
It is difficult for me to pinpoint exactly how I feel at this new place at the moment, if I'm being honest with myself, it's not too dissimilar to where I was before. And as much as it makes me feel comforted, it also makes me wonder how long I'll be able to hack it. Because the characters are already starting to form and tomorrow will be the 4th day.
I need to give it more time. My old work want me to go back and my old colleague advised that if I got in touch and 'named my price' they would gladly go for it. It's nice to feel wanted and it sure is tempting, especially when it's falling back into the familiar fold which I've truly missed. But, I know that a week or two in, the novelty will wear away and it'll be right back to that place I was before - I wasn't happy, I left for a reason. No amount of money will make me feel better there.
That being said, I am a little concerned about how things will pan out financially at the new place. They're paying less but i'm still having to travel in. But, we'll just have to wait and see, give it a month at least.
So far though, people seem nice and I'm genuinely interest in the tailoring industry and what the future has in store for a company so proud of their heritage. So far, it's gone okay! There's a lot to learn, and I doubt I'll get much training - i'm already answering phones, I'm just blagging it for now. If you sound like you know what you're talking about, well, you're halfway there. Isn't that what everyone's doing anyway?
It's a small office, at the moment it's just me and my boss. Soon a new chap will start who will be more sales based and won't be in the office as much, but I guess that's okay. You've got to get one well with each other in such small proximity but that's fine for now. I'm just...very intrigued. At least the comforting sound of the radio is on in the background, I do like that. It takes me back to the days when I worked in that little shop in Cambridge. It takes me back to those times, those memories.
Sigh.
At least I can leave it gets too much. I just need to do my best and give it my best shot.
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