21.8.17

Jump into the Thames 

The Thames is high today and choppy. Another morning has past where I've fumbled my way through once again. 


I don't want to go back again. I almost want to topple into the water and let it carry me away...



No news as of yet from my old boss, who would have thought that one day I'd be so eagerly waiting for an email from him. But it's true, I couldn't help but check them to see. I'll give it a week, and if I haven't heard anything then, well, I can draw a line under it. And that in itself will be a good thing - hearing from them will be a positive in any aspect. But what can I do for the time being? I seriously need to draw up a list of pros and cons this evening and seriously think it over...

Could I really leave? Could I really go against Chris, my parents?...no, I need a plan first, suck it up and just power through...it's easy to put a positive spin on it now that I'm on the train home. 



Why are you still in my dreams? 

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