17.8.17

Clueless panic 

I'm sitting waiting in the station looking at everyone walk by as I'm here early, as I always am. 

I want to cry. Suddenly my body feels as though it weighs 5 tonnes and the thought of standing up again feels like a mammoth task. I don't want to go in, I want to go the train back home again. 

I also want to stop feeling so sorry for myself, it's my fault that I'm in this situation. 

I've got to stay strong. 

What am I going to do? 

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