Reflection

So...it didn't go the best, I've got to be honest with myself and admit that I didn't even complete the Excel task as requested. That really cant look any good to them I'm sure. 

But as disappointed as I am, I know I've got to be true to myself, even if I had a week to prepare for it, learning all the formulas and going over all that stuff, I expect it would have ended the same. It's not what I've had experience doing, and if that's what they want then, well I didn't get the job. I did myself proud though by not crying and I don't think I appeared to 'crack' under the pressure and I asked for help, which, isn't a bad thing? Maybe it is. I don't know. I've got to try and forget about it now and pretend it never happened. 

If they liked my personality though, well maybe I've got a chance, but it's slim. 

Sigh.

All this job searching is so emotionally draining, and I can't take another day off at my current job, it's a 'three strikes and you're out' policy and I'm just running out of time. But giving up is not an option - giving up will leave me with nothing and I can't do that. 

I'm going to have to have a deep think this evening...