About half an hour ago I felt a little blue but I couldn't put my finger on why. I don't believe it could have been for this place, but maybe it is on some level. I walked up Piccadilly and fondly looked up at the buildings and enjoyed the presence of the shops I've walked past so many times before. I impulse bought something I didn't really need and came back to the silent office. Change is on the horizon - the change I've been wanting for so long and I'm a bit uneasy.
Yesterday was meant to be my 'leaving do' but it ended up not happening which although it disappointed me, it didn't surprise me. I knew it all along, even when plans were formulated, it just didn't feel...true. It's difficult not to take it personally, but I do think it's simply because they're all so antisocial. I have done so much for them and they can't bring themselves to gather with me for a drink or two? I like to think it's more because they don't want to mix with my manager, who wasn't attending anyway, or the HR guy who's messed me around so much. But still, it just sums up everything about my entire experience here. Even though I've worked my very best, and I know they appreciate it, they will NEVER say it. It's like someone close to you saying they care - it's not that you need to hear it all the time, but it's nice once in a while.
So, no more of this old street and the eccentrics that line it, shop down it, watch it, photograph it. And no more of this industry. It hasn't been long in comparison to other peoples work ventures, but for me, it has. The longest place I've worked for a company and I cannot deny the opportunities it has opened up for me during that time. The people I've met, places I've been, millions I've held in my hands or admired through a loop. It's almost surreal but i'm sure i'll recount this tales to my grandchildren as clearly as it is all happening before my eyes right now.
A client of ours called just to chat, as he usually does at the end of the week. He's such a sweet, kind man and he expressed a lot of sadness at me leaving and put another member of his team on to say goodbye. They also sent me a card, which they all signed...just so thoughtful. And I've never even met any of these people! It really made me smile, I am glad that to someone my efforts have been recognised. I will miss them all, which I never thought i'd say!
I suppose it just brings home the fact that you only have today. And you have to make the most of every opportunity you have and the people you meet. Perhaps we'll meet again one day.
What does the future hold for me?
Everything is temporary.
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