24.3.17

Evaporate me....

I wait at the station I arrived at earlier this morning for an interview I believe went really well. But now I'm tired, delayed, shaky and pissed off, i worry that I'm wrong in this assumption. What if I didn't ask enough questions? Did I seem too ditsy, too polished? Too...too much? I don't know. I'm so desperate to leave my heart latches on to any possibility...I need to forget all about it now. 


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Heard nothing, so I assume I fucked it up somehow, looks like I won't be going anywhere anytime soon. Wonderful. What's the point? Today can do one. It's not even 12 yet and I've already had enough. Take me away from within this body, i can't stop grinding my teeth - I'm almost shaking with anger with tears in my eyes. I could seriously hurt myself, I want to do much. Maybe being at work is a blessing...

Period is here, and all those pissing hormones are crashing me back to this cold, bitter earth and I want to die. It will pass, I don't mean it, but I HATE this and just want to shut my eyes and disappear. Don't talk to me, don't smile at me - don't even go there. 

Evaporate me.....







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