What am I going to do? 

 

Surely I can't stay here...I wonder if I should hand in my notice now, just count on my savings to get me through potential tough spots but hope I'll find something sooner than my fears.

The idea of traipsing through jobs on endless websites fills me with dread today. But then maybe that's just because i'm not in the best of moods. I knew that this was coming, this hasn't really caught me by surprise but it still stings a bit somehow.

Last night me and Chris were talking about everything and he was getting annoyed on my behalf. I complained that my body feels tired and weak because I'm fed up and generally sad. Work is where I spend most of my time and the atmosphere drains me of my usually positive spirit. I don't feel I can put up with it for much longer. I know everyone wants me to stay, but I don't feel respected - in fact I've been walked over throughout my employment here.

But if I did that, would it make me feel better, or more nervous and on edge? Would it be the final kick I need to get through? Or should I just wait it out and hope for the best? I'm running out of hope...