Rainbow

Aw, the small little peep of the outside world from my desk reveals a beautiful rainbow in the sky. Although I can only see a small section, it's made me smile internally. I appreciate how it coincided with a moment of sighing, feeling a little bit lost. Things are moving quickly and although it's what I want to happen, it's wish I had everything figured out more clearly.

The place we really liked when we first viewed it, we've put a deposit on to officially take it off the market. It doesn't feel so long ago that we did the same for the place we're living in now. I suppose it was only 4 months... of course this is just how time is, this is how it works. It's never perfect. But if we were to wait until December, somebody would have surely snapped it up. It'll be great for Chris, he'll be able to walk to work every day, save lots of money. For me, it's going to be tight. I'll have a long commute each morning to a job I don't particularly like, and it will cost me a good third of my overall pay-check to do it. After rent I won't be left with much at all. But that's what should inspire me to find a new job and I know that I will, I just wish it was tomorrow! 

I've got to do plenty more form filling in I'm sure before that can happen, but that's fair enough I suppose. Hopefully it'll be worth the wait. Everything is temporary, just got to keep telling myself that.

I'll change my CV again for something less colourful and more plain I guess. If I'm going for admin based things and someone doesn't like the appearance of the document, it could be enough to turn them off and not even read a word. It's so harsh and cut-throat, I wish I had a thicker skin. 

Now I've got to do everything I can to save wherever I can. I'm cycling home this evening and I do hope it's calm so I'll be able to think things through a bit. Hopefully i'll be able to for the majority of this month. It is tempting to hand in my notice already, but it feels a little slapdash. Mentally, looking for a job when officially unemployed even for a matter of days feels deflating and as though you're disadvantaged. I know that's not the way I really want to go about it, so I've just got to pull my socks up and keep hunting. Hopefully, in the next couple of weeks there will be a light at the end of this tunnel.