On the train back home, a good quarter of an hour ahead of my usual routine. What a strange couple of days it has been. 

The work event yesterday which feels as though the build up dragged on for weeks and weeks is finally over, I couldn't be happier. Being pulled about by that awful woman in PR, goodness gracious me! I was not far from actually telling her to shove her 'ideas' up her arse but then she's not one to make enemies with really. But it's all taken it's toll a bit, I'm fed up of doing everyone's hard work because people are lazy. For nothing! 

I looked about at our ridiculous display and then at the ridiculous turn out; botoxed ladies in designer dresses tottering about looking for free champagne and acknowledgment, it's a whole other world but one I'm so happy I'm not a part of. It's all false laughs, showing off pampered hair styles and over the top posing, everyone thinking they're a celebrity. Exhausting to watch. 

Today I was able to go in a bit later than planned which was nice. My boss was in and he was in good spirits. As the afternoon wore on, he pulled me to one side and asked about me going part time, and that my colleague had confided in him that it's likely I'd be leaving as a result. Technically it's not directly related to that, but it certainly gave me the push to start applying again. 

He told me he didn't want that to happen and said he'd do what he could in order to keep things the same. I worried it would be to late. But actually, after a meeting with the general manager, it seems I will be staying after all! Which is sort of good news, in a way. JB showed me an email to explain that he had no idea Tom from HR gave me the letter saying I was going back part time, he'd done on it on his own assumption. Ideas about his station that man - my levels of respect were low before but now they are non existent. 

He called me briefly afterward 'so, apologies for that, bye!' I wanted to be so angry at him but in truth, I felt sorry for him. He's an idiot and that must be tough to grapple with each day. I have been badly tested though, i feel like a bit of a mug. The thing is now that everything is back to how it should, it's tempting to just let it slide but I know it's unacceptable. 

I'm still hopeful, the hope has never wavered. I will still apply for new jobs until something gives - it all happens for a reason. 

I'm on my way to by a bottle of gin and he ready for chris to come home.