I hope so

Just letting the past couple of hours sink in. It's all good stuff, though. 

I felt I was all prepared but when you walk through some slick, shiny doors it's easy to just let it all escape you. I tried to not feel too intimated, it's clearly a much different work environment to what I'm used to - but so cool, oh my goodness me, so cool. I looked about in awe - everyone is chilled, sprits are high, it's youthful and colourful. The offices are busy but open and although everyone is talking, it's easy to hear in your own little place of peace.

The chap I met was a great character, very himself! Serious, obviously very knowledgable about the brand and loyal with a touch of 'lad' in there, a dry sense of humour. I liked him and he put me at ease. His assistant was really friendly to, they both made it clear it was informal, more of a chat than the standard interview. But their questions surprised me and I did feel a bit on the spot. But I read this in a positive way - they genuinely cared, they're not asking the bog standard stuff to get me out of there as soon as possible. 

'what's your perfect job role?' 

'Tell us something about yourself which isn't on your CV' 

'You're clearly a very creative individual, why aren't you working for yourself or for a big fashion brand?' 

Overall, I answered them all as best as I possibly could have and we managed to have a few laughs to. Afterwards, they gave me the opportunity to sit with some of the guys who work in the department and ask them questions. It was tempting to just say no and get out of there, but I thought it was too good an opportunity to miss! I could show them that I was interested and wanted to see it all for myself. It only made me feel more excited, because I knew I could do it all. There's a lot to learn - but I love that! There's a lot to process but I'm just buzzing! 

Kevin, a guy who's been there about 6 years or so, kindly talked me through everything and was so sweet. He really put me at ease and I got a nice vibe off him. We talked for about 45 mins or so which I wasn't really expecting but it didn't feel at all laboured or mechanical. The guy who interviewed me passed us a couple of times and made jokey remarks which I liked. 

'You'd be perfect it here, I'll be sure to put in a good word for you!' Kevin said as he handed me back to the assistant. 

I then met Chris for lunch and we talked about how our days were going at a nearby sandwich shop. It was great. It felt so good, it's just everything I want in a job and I want it so badly! My gut is telling me good things, it feels...right! But I could be wrong. They said it's all a bit up in the air and they're not sure of dates. Also, they're interviewing more people in the next couple of weeks so it'll depend a lot on who they see. 

What I've taken from it is that if I don't get it, then they're looking for a particular character type that I'm not. Perhaps someone loud, athletic, forthright and bold. Because I truly believe that we hit it off on a reasonable level and I showed that I was keen, passionate about customer service and the brand. I'm happy with all of those things and how I generally performed.

So for now, I've got to try and not think about it too much and get on with ordinary work...sigh. 

I know that everything happens for a reason. If it doesn't happen that's okay. I will be sad, but that's because I care and, foolishly put in too much of my emotional energy. 

I am thankful the opportunity though and of course I've heard some new questions to prepare answers for other interviews I guess...just need to keep my chin up and hope for the best. 

Sigh. Feels a bit weird, having all this energy - possibly caffeine, racing round my body and I'm just heading home. 

Although soon a new flat will be our new home. It feels surreal, but exciting. All of it does.

Wish I didn't feel so darn hopeful though...

I think it might take a moment to pray this evening.