Tomorrow I've an 'informal chat' with a fellow who works for the same company as Chris. I am really excited yet confused by what it all might entail as it's not something I've had before (I don't think,) I hope i'll have the opportunity to come out with some interview style answers, because I've got them all ready and at hand! I suppose I've just got to go with the flow really, and see what the general vibe is, because being too formal in that instance could be a real turn-off for them. I suppose it's the classic 'be yourself!' deal. I am a bit anxious too because there is a fair bit riding on it. I don't want to think or admit this because it's only adding to the pressure, but it is true. Without being too big-headed, it should be something I can nail because it's something i'm actually experience in and pretty good at. For once i'm confident in my skills, this is something I can actually get rather passionate about. So if I weren't to get it, I'd be really disappointed in myself. It's a company I know lots about through Chris because he's spoken a lot about it. I'm excited by the idea of working for a company so dynamic and versatile, but it's never something I've experienced before therefore it's easy to tell myself that it's something I won't ever experience full stop.
In the face of an amazing opportunity, it's so easy to be negative - why is that? it's so frustrating and potentially hindering to.
I'm so grateful for this though and I'm hoping that it'll go really well. It's important to make the most of it whatever happens. If it's meant to be, then it's meant to be.
I know what I've got to do - I've got to get myself into that zone! I need to dress in something cool and stylish, get my make-up spot on, hair just right so I start to feel confident. I know where the offices are which is a bonus, so I don't need to get all keyed up about the journey, i'll leave with plenty of time. In some miracle I was able to get the day booked off as holiday by my boss - which is a real first! Or course, he doesn't know why exactly, I just said it was relating to moving house.
When I get there, when I meet this guy I know it'll start to feel right and from there I just need to see how it all plays out. If it goes well...oh, I almost don't want to think about it! It'll mean I can finally leave this place, good grief! It's a rather odd thought, this street I've come to know so well and gradually dislike over the years - years! will be a place I no longer dwell. And then to move away from the capital...it's just such a change, the sort I could easily cry with happiness about if given the chance - but of course i'm not! There's no way I can let myself think that far ahead.
I know that there would be a bit of sadness too, as there is with all things. It's a bit like a relationship really, when you're with that person reluctantly, all you can see is the things you can't stand but as the realisation dawns that you'll be leaving, you start to hold onto the comforts.
This is an opportunity to be embraced and enjoyed! It's a step in the right direction, I need to hold my head up high and just go for it! I need to be charismatic, charming and enthusiastic - all the things I usually find come easily, and hopefully I won't appear too nervous.
As the afternoon draws in, I can start getting myself mentally prepared...
As scary as it is, this could well be the amazing fresh start to a brand new chapter!
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