Urgh, don't like myself much lately. I feel fat in everything I wear and when I try to make an effort for anything I feel like such a dork. I want to buy lots of new clothes and make myself feel more, 'updated'? But anything I buy I instantly feel as though it was a waste of money. In truth, I can't justify spending lots of money on...anything, certainly myself. I hope that these will pass in a few days...
Chris looks like he's got himself a new job, after looking for what, an hour or two? I am so happy for him yet I envy the position he's in and how easy it is for him to find work. I've dug myself such a shite little hole. Nobody will employ me for my creativity because I haven't got much in the way of commercial experience - which I don't like anyway, but nobody will take me on for something customer service driven because I've not progressed to management level...I know it's okay, I don't have to earn much money to be happy. But I'm not earning much money now and I'm not happy.
BRING ON THE WINTER!
can't stand any more of this clammy, warm, moist heat with spotting rain and dreary cloud. That can piss right off.
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