'You taste so bitter and so sweet'

On my way home to see dad and have a much needed catch up, I'm really looking forward to it. 

It's been a nice Saturday and I've savoured the laziness, gorging on leftover pizza from last night and drawing in front of comedies, it's been a sweet ending to a trailing week. 

There were a few delays coming out of this station but for once my leaving ridiculously early paid off, and somehow ended up getting a train earlier than planned. 

Some poor soul lost their life on the tracks this evening, purposefully or not, I felt my heart sink for them. I've been rather emotional the past couple of days, the professional haze seems to have risen and I feel back to how I used to be; emotionally tuned in. I've seen a couple of sad documentaries today that have stayed with me, it just makes me look at the state of the world and how such awful, terrible things are happening. If we ever make a step forward as a society, we take bigger step backwards. It's a bit negative I know, and this is the way it has always been and it's likely to remain this way. It does make me question how things would be if there was no such feeling as 'hate.' I need to get off my hippy high horse. 

A kind lady replied to the anonymous 'letter to' article I decided to send on a whim.

'We don't usually reply personally but we were particularly struck by the line 'wish I could tell you how much I care about you.' You can tell her how much you care for her.' 

It was ever so touching, and it did make me want to write a letter to na, maybe I will. 

The day was also sealed by my manager finally signing off two days of holiday that Chris booked to go and see a gig, I'm delighted. I am really looking forward to August now, I think it's going to be a good month. 

Then as the month draws to a close, I will look for another job. It really is time, I cannot be there two years I just can't! I should tune it out and get on with it, but it's eating away into my...well-being. I feel I deserve better than that now. I am hopefully that turning 26 will give me that kick up the backside I very much need!