I'm really glad that the weekend is here at last, and i've a saturday to myself to catch up with various things. Nothing exciting of course, just milling about, cleaning, tidying up and such. This flat feels as though it's always been ours, it's almost like my mind skips past our previous place. Although we had many happy memories there, the place itself was just a shell to encase these and it's not a place I feel like returning to any time soon. It feels as though finally we have a home.
I went for a run this morning, for the first time in a long while. It felt nice to get out of the house and push myself once, it also enabled me to do a bit of exploring. There's a lovely park not too far away so I did a lap and a bit of that. Perhaps I will get into the habit of doing it every other day, I hope I will. But by announcing such a thing is almost the birth and the ending of such an idea, the pressure is too much and I find myself avoiding it. Maybe this way I'll just go when I have a moment, and eventually find I start making times for these 'moments.' It would be nice to get a bit fitter, and it doesn't cost a penny. The fresh air is far better than gym air conditioning and the guys waddling around like they own the weights, shaking their protein powders in those chubby bottles. I'm envious of their commitment - they look fantastic! But I don't much care for that environment.
Olive messaged me during the week asking if we fancied meeting up today. I left it open because I didn't know what to say, I always want to meet him if he offers his time, however I know what will happen if we do meet up. I told him I wasn't feeling too well today and was taking some time in bed, he offered to join, and it just suddenly felt very creepy. I recalled the last time I met him and it was a close call, I felt relieved to get away - so I ignored it and left it as that. It is a shame that we can't be friends, because I like him as a guy and find him interesting. He's so cool, he's just got everything figured out. But then he comes over incredibly forward and it just destroys the image, it comes off a little desperate. He's got a long-term girlfriend, they live together, - i'm happy with Chris, I don't want to look elsewhere - if he were to find out I had met with him today and revealed his strong intentions, it would very likely put a big wedge between us, or indeed end us. There's no way I want to do that.
The interview went pretty well yesterday I think, I'll know by Monday if I'm invited to another interview with the actual company. I think if I'm offered it, I'll go along, but I'm not sure what to do really. I know it's a great opportunity, but it is a little bit less money. The colleague who went on Maternity leave, came in to the office yesterday to catch up with us all and it was nice to see her, her little baby is just adorable. She said to us all that she's coming back, and although that's nice news, it does mean that I will have less work to do. I may possibly go back to part time again. So if that does happen, a new job will have to be on the cards. As much as i'd like to be part time, it's impossible to save anything so it would be daft to go back to that...we'll just have to see how everything pans out.
So now I'm going to stick a documentary on and do some drawing, I hope it'll go well!
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