Temporary

I feel very overwhelmed today. I'm probably just tired, but I feel sad and on a bit of a downer.

I just don't feel as though I'm making any progress in any sort of way, everything feels as though it's a mess. Giving up is not an option but I wish it was.

 

Tomorrow I believe we're picking up the keys for the new place, I can't believe it's come around so quickly. As always it'll just be me there as Chris is working, but hopefully it'll be okay. I'm looking forward to packing things up and cleaning our current place down, I just want the looming change to be present with us so I can tackle it and move on to the next challenge.

I thought I'd take a look at new jobs and things and was surprised to find a few things that might be worth going for. Some mornings (like today,) I just want to jack it all in and start again. I'm well and truly fed up with this place, I've had ENOUGH.

But with that there's a comfort; I know what to expect from this place, I know my job well, the company, everyone that works here. I'd have to re-learn all of that again which is pretty daunting. But does that mean I've got to stay here forever? no! I've got to just look past all of those fears because I know as soon as I get there I'll be fine. It's tough, but it's part of the challenge.

 

It's all just temporary anyway. Everything we do...what does it even matter?