We're almost halfway through May already, this year feels as though it's flying by so quickly.

Back into work mode after a long weekend. I feel as though I can't remember getting here, one of those mornings which is just relentlessly passing by but I'm not really aware until after the time has passed.

Today I feel my memories spanning back to when I was in primary school, running out on the fields, racing friends right to the bottom by the trees, picking daisies in the sun. The world felt so huge, everything was just laid out ahead of me back then. It still is now of course, but the worries of being a grown up dull the shine of all the dreams and grand plans.

 

Our landlords have agreed to let us leave the contract a month early, which is brilliant news. This means we'll only have to do the double rent for one month instead of two, which means perhaps a holiday may be on the cards after all. It may also mean that all my bank accounts won't be emptied, I can think about putting it towards something else later down the line. But, money is always only a temporary thing after all, isn't it what it's there for, to be spent when needed? Sometimes it doesn't even feel real, it's all just figures on paper floating about in the internet's own air. But then, real or not, the world takes it all very seriously and highly respects those who have more figures than those who don't. I believe we need it to survive but I don't think it makes people happy. I do feel more at ease when I know to expect a certain amount each month, I've lived a fair number of years paycheque to paycheque and it's fraught times. But then you can only expect so much, companies can surprise you, nothing is ever guaranteed. 

 

So, Monday thoughts just passing through my mind as I try to weigh up how I'm feeling today.