When the apple is ripe it will fall.
Just got to keep telling myself this.
I'm feeling a bit more upbeat today but I'm not sure how long it will last for. I'm trying to reawaken the artistic side of me but it's a slow process. I've finally opened up an Etsy shop, but what's currently on there is an acquired taste that I doubt it'll sell for a long time, if ever. But I just wanted to put something on there which is far better than a blank page. I sent off some prints at long last, so hopefully they will cause a little bit more of a stir. We will have to wait and see. I'm trying to put something new up on there every week, I know that the more active I am on there the more attention it will receive but it does take patience, I know that.
Me and Chris are starting to look forward to the move now, I think it's because all these viewings are starting to get in the way of our daily lives and the issue with the flat are start to grate a bit. The couple upstairs are so noisy as is the guy below and as unfashionable as it sounds, I'm really looking forward to some peace and quiet. We're both looking forward to setting up for perhaps longer than a year, I hope so, I'm looking forward to that too. I've not had that yet in London and it's been nearly 4 years, there's been a lot of moves.
It'll be nice to move with somebody as well, combine both of our things. It's not just mine followed by his, no, it's all of our belongings. There's something rather special about that which I also haven't experienced before. This weekend we're meeting the landlady to sign the contract and pay the months rent in advance, which will really mark the start of things changing. Afterwards we're going to his mums to watch their wedding video which I'm really looking forward to (I also hope that I'm not in it much at all!) I know they will be excited to see it again, it'll be fun to relive the experience as it was a lovely day. The next day we'll be visiting mum and rick for the day, which i'm also really looking forward to. I miss home lots and I miss them lots too, it'll be great to go with Chris as well, I like our drives.
Just got to get this week out of the way first before any enjoyment can take place. I think after the move I'll start to look for other things, I think that will help give me the pep I need, even if it doesn't amount to anything. Tackling the CV will be a huge weight off my mind that's for sure.
Sigh, meeting Ellie this evening for dinner which should be good although I'm not really looking forward to it. I know when I get there and see her it'll all fall into place, but it's just my general anxiety kicking in. I should be going to the gym, I've decided to give it another miss, sigh - tomorrow will be the day! I know i'll feel much better for going.
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