Wishbone

Waking up this morning wasn't much of a problem at all, the sickness I felt at the bottom of my stomach was undeniable. As I ran a shower I waited for the stick to reveal it's answer, I started to grow more and more worried as it debated. I tried to turn away but my eyes kept trying to see what it read. I got out, picked it up and saw 'Not Pregnant' and almost felt relief but also a bit of disbelief. I hid it back in it's box to throw away later on.

I saw him sleeping in bed and I curled up next to him. I wanted to share my worries but I still keep telling myself that it will do no good at all. So, I will carry on waiting. If that's what it says, then that's what I should take and carry on as if nothing has happened. 

 

Now it's sunk in a little more, I can't help but think that maybe I've got it all wrong anyway. Perhaps I've miscalculated somehow, or it's not 28 days in this instance. Maybe I've actually got to wait another 4 days...I need to double check this before wasting any more money on flaming tests, it's like literally pissing money down the drain!

 

I still feel as though my body is telling me something. I'll try and get on with life until March comes, and if something hasn't come along by then well then I am absolutely certain something isn't right...

 

What do I really want the outcome to be?