Lucky

What a wonderful, whirlwind weekend. Chris surprised me with a road trip to Cornwall, a beautiful little village right by the coast.

He let it slip on Friday night at a friends birthday outing at this trendy, basement bar with table tennis tables and colourful graffiti all over the walls. The place was filled to the brim with cool couples, gatherings of trendy friends, possibly straight from work equipped with sharp attire, designer brands, generally fashionable. I felt happy to be there and yet a little out of place, although this isn't unusual as it happens at any bar/club, no matter how trendy it appears to be. This feeling of building anxiety is usually masked with generous helpings of alcohol but I decided to not drink at all as I was tired and drained. For some reason I felt I needed to have my guard up as there were lots of people there I hadn't met before.

Chris drank for me though and got pretty tipsy, which was funny. But the tiredness tinted my vision with doubts. I saw him revel in being daft and merry with his friends and it made me realise how unwilling he would likely be if the situation presented itself as I fear. I just saw what we have now, our wonderful relationship, just slip away before my eyes...I felt sad and worried.

We left rather early along with some of his other friends and got the last train home. He was talking about how he was researching where this place was over the weekend and gave a massive hint of where it was, I grinned excitedly and we chatted about our plans, dissolving any feeling of sadness. We got home, ate pizza and watched videos on Youtube. 

The next morning we got up early, packed up our bags and headed to his mums to pick up the car. Soon we were away, it was lovely. Indeed it was a long journey, but it was such fun. We talked the entire time, listened to music, the radio, ate sweets and enjoyed the sights of the dramatic landscape. We arrived and the air felt so crisp and fresh, it was so calm, quiet and peaceful. We checked in at the hotel, dumped our bags and went for an amble by the sea, throwing stones into the crashing waves. The sun was dipping down, it was grey and cloudy but so beautiful. It felt so good being there with him, I just felt that we were both so connected. We went back for coffee, got dressed up for a meal out which was a short drive away, it was fun driving about at night. The food was amazing, we asked each other questions, dating - it almost felt like a second date! We then headed back for an early night beneath the covers, which was just incredible. It had been about a week so it had built up nicely, it was good to just let go and forget about everything for a while. 

The next day we woke up, had breakfast, went to a lovely bird-sanctuary and cooed over the bright parrots, cute owls and roaming chickens. I just loved it! We then drove to the Eden Project which was amazing! We were both feeling a bit tired by the end of it, and as we walked back to the car to head home I felt my eyes fill up as I was overwhelmed by how great a surprise it was and how sad I felt that it was coming to an end.

The drive home was a little longer, lots of diversions but when we eventually got home we were soon straight to sleep.

I feel so blue that it is Monday, it has come around quicker than ever...