Feet pacing thoughts racing

I just couldn't get to sleep last night at all, I really struggled to shut my mind off. The windows rattling, upstairs pacing, thoughts racing...it was one of those. Funnily enough after a hug from Chris I was able to relax somehow but I just couldn't get these nightmare thoughts out of my mind, I'm punishing myself. What was recently a desire has now become a very real fear, the thought of potentially losing everything I have now to become another typical statistic... so much of what I'm worried about just won't become clear for another month for sure, so why am I worrying so much now? Sigh, I've just got to try and forget and calm myself down.