Couldn't have put it better myself, Simon Pegg.
Interesting how the death of such an inspiration can bring so many people together, and this morning, it brought someone back into my life who I wasn't at all expecting. Even if it was just for a few moments, it still made me glow from within.
'He's gone, man :( thinking of you and your family today x x' it read. I wondered if it was meant for somebody else and it arrived in my inbox by accident. My heart sank for a second as our last text exchange was still visible from 2 years ago, how polite it was and how it took me back to the times I typed so many things to then erase it all, backwards and forwards, repeated for many, many times in a sort of sad, mad craze. I'm glad I didn't and we left it as we did. To see his full name on my phone once again almost felt as though I was in some sort of dream. It meant a lot that he knew how much the sudden death of David Bowie would effect my family, all being very big fans - my stepdad in particular. It made me smile because I had thought of him also that very morning, wondering which albums he'd be listening to as a mark of respect. His beautiful words I really had missed. I found myself right back there again, where I typed and corrected, typed corrected, put the phone down, then decided on something to reply. So many things I wanted to ask, and still do.
But there is no time for this, no time to throw things up in the air again and revisit those old questions which could cause so much upset. I stood in front of Chris and saw that he is very much my life now, it's time to let these things remain in the past. I know that I will still always care, and his random message that came out of the blue confirmed to me more than I ever would have imagined and I feel at peace.
And I sit and listen to The Rise And Fall Of Ziggy Stardust in my speakers as I try and shake off this illness I must have caught whilst at home at the weekend, and I ponder.
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