And so it is. Just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me...most of the time.

It's time for another pointless update on this dark, gloomy day in the quiet, quiet office I often find myself wondering why it is I'm even here. But at least it's something, and it's better than what I've been through in the past and for that I am grateful and should just go along with anyway.
It feels as though already this week is dragging. I haven't been feeling so well but then this afternoon my headache has finally decided to subside, maybe it's the paractemol and long last taking effect. I think I'll walk home this evening after all. I feel like listening to old songs I used to love, albums that will take me back to my teenage days where I was lost in a romantic visions of the future. 
 
A couple of days ago I saw my best friend who came to visit me in London. It was so lovely to see her, I had missed her. Her sister had her baby today. I know she is happy for her but she is sad as well because I know she wants one too. I feel her pain. 
My yearnings have calmed a little, but they still cross my mind frequently. There are times where I wonder what I would do if I found myself there once again, sigh. It is impossible to tell or know for sure. I know that things are different now to how they things were then. It may only be a few months ago but we are in a different place now with 'us.' I feel as though we have come a long way. I know we would both feel lots better if we had our footing on the property ladder. It seems so far away but it could be doable in the next couple of years, and by then i'll be 27 - the target age I wanted my life to settle a bit. Can you put an age on it, really? No, it seems silly to. Life doesn't really fall into place like that, well, not for me anyway. But it's good to have ambitions I suppose. 
I'm going to see if there are some other things I can sell online this evening, all to put towards the savings. I even bought some rollerblades so I can start blading to and from work...I'll look so ridiculous but I love it and hey, it'll do the job. I hope I will beat my fears and actually do it. Heck you see enough people darting about this city on strange contraptions, hoverboards for goodness sake! In a blink I'll be gone anyway.