Down day

I don't know what happened last night, but as I was drifting off to sleep I kept waking up startled, to horrible, irrational fears. This morning I feel low, I don't know why but I just feel so tired and drained.

Maybe it's because I am, but it doesn't feel justified. I've been going to the gym as much as possible, I'm planning on going again this eve but perhaps it'll do more harm than good, I don't know. Apprehensions and insecurities are back on the rise again and I wish I could stop it. But then again I will just blame it on feeling tired and will concentrate on getting today done, counting it as another one out the way before Christmas. I'm looking forward to it very much this year, mainly for having a nice break because work feels as though it has been a bit stressful as of late. But it'll be so good to see my family and hopefully friends to. I hope to see Chris over the festive time as well, but as we're both working lots and are packed with seeing family over the four days I doubt it'll happen but I am hopeful. 

 

I just need to perk up, I hate feeling like this. I just want to disappear.