Last day of holidays

I've got that cosy, autumnal feeling today. I woke up this morning to slightly frosty windows confirming that the seasons are on the turn at last.

I love the summer and all that it brings, however I'm looking forward to the change. I always prefer the wintery months, big scarves, dark colours, layers up to keep the cold out. Lovely! I think our house is going to feel rather cold as it gets chilly in the eves already, but I'm sure it'll be ok. 

When the seasons change they make me think back to the previous year and how it doesn't feel as though much time has passed at all. I think of those late nights with my head against the window pane of a rocky rain carriage on my way home from Canterbury. How at the time, that really seemed a big deal and yet now, it feels as though it were only a fleeting period of time. No disrespect to Alex of course, he was a sweet guy. I wonder how he's doing now, what's he's up to, if he's with anyone. The same with Olive too. It's the sort of curiosity that won't ever go any further than the thought, but it's funny how once upon a time you wrap each other in your life, your ambitions, memories to then never see them again. My heart was still with Joe though through these times, although I wouldn't believe it at the time. It just goes to show that it really can take a good couple of years to let the wounds heal. I have since learnt that he now has a girlfriend and seems to be happy, and I'm glad. The first time I ever checked and typed in his name, I realised I really was over it. Before I did think about doing it but knew I wasn't strong enough to handle what I found, even if months and months had gone by without any contact. This time I saw his name and his profile picture was a photo that I had taken of him, and it really made me smile. Perhaps I read into it too much, but I liked to think that it was him saying that he doesn't want to delete those times even if they were a while ago. It was a funny sort of closure. 

I'm on my way to my old stomping ground, visiting my best friend from home. I'm really looking forward to it as it's been a while. I'm back to work tomorrow and know that as soon as I get back it'll be difficult to go and see her as ordinarily she lives pretty far away. There's lots of catch up on...