Will always be sorry...

I am so sorry that you couldn't be ours. This will be something I feel sorry for, for a very long time. There is so much love between us, and I feel terribly guilty that we can't share this love with you as well, you deserve it, you've done nothing wrong. You've entered my life at a time of great change and financial instability and I can't help but feel that it wouldn't be fair to bring you up at a time where I don't truly feel as though I'm an adult myself. We do want you one day though, very, very much. Hopefully in the next couple of years where our circumstances will be different and much better. We will feel prepared and ready for you, we will be overjoyed and overflowing with excitement. I just dearly wish that we felt this way now, but it's still such early days and we still feel young. Please forgive me, and know that this is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my life...I'm only trying to do what's best for you, not me.