For the first time in what feels like a long while, I slept rather well last night. I always seem to when I'm at my dads house. Maybe things are sinking in now, and maybe I'm getting used to the idea. One thing I know for sure, is that I simply can't carry on feeling the way that I did in the recent past couple of days, I think that would eventually make me feel incredibly ill and emotionally weak.
Even though telling dad was incredibly difficult and I was worried by how he'd respond, he certainly helped me things appear a bit clearer. I mentioned how so many ladies at work are pregnant and I'll be having to face that every day for the next couple of weeks but he said 'you've got to view this as something completely different. Things are so early, it's not really at that stage yet.' And I think I know what he means. The thing is, when it's happening inside everything feels magnified and different. I feel as though I'm very aware of it eventhough I'm sure it's just my mind playing tricks on me...