To be honest, none of it has really sunk in yet. It has gone for a couple of excitable conversations to flat viewings, to deposits...God, isn't it all grown up.
After an evening of discussing potential budgets we looked through adverts online and before we knew it, we were messaging places we liked the look of.
A couple of days ago we viewed a place that looked promising from the photos. When we looked around it, it just seemed to click. It felt right having him next to me as we explored it's rooms and offerings. I could picture us having friends over, parties, game nights, dinners, baking fiascos and lots of fun within its walls. When we said our goodbyes to the agent, we cooly walked away from the door, down the street without saying too much, but then we couldn't contain it anymore. We expressed our excitement and soon we talked about making it ours.
Yesterday was a blur of phone calls, worries and concerns. There was a lot of money talk banded about and it all started to feel more real. I could sense that Chris was starting to feel more uncomfortable which made me incredibly nervous, and still does. He's never moved out before, and he was really struggling with ideas of how to get the money. I was to, but knew that I would be able to arrange something with my parentals eventually, they were excited by the idea of us moving in together.
Chris's mum was supportive, but she did voice her concerns and said we should wait to save more. It was good advise, I can't deny that. I was worried it would be planting the seeds of doubt in his mind and the following morning we were quiet. But after learning we had a couple of months to save before the move in August, the pressure was relieved a little.
And so now we wait.
He texted me this morning to say he didn't sleep very well and neither did I. I am just so worried he thinks this is all too fast...urgh. But, I have my own worries on all this, I can't be carrying his around as well! We've just got to make sure we keep a strong communication between us, let each other know what we're there fore each other and it'll all be okay in the end. After all, we've only got today.
I replied with dads advise to offer a bit of comfort (I do hope!)
'Dad told me this once and I rather liked it (actually probably around the time I was moving last time!) I think about it at times like this where change is on the horizon, even if it's of the positive variety!;
'It's human to be worried about change, it's the fear of the unknown. But just because you don't know what's going to happen, doesn't mean it's going to be bad!' not saying I think it's going to be bad haha! But moving always unsettles me to, it can be easy to get a bit worked up about it all.
Anywaaaay!! Enough of that grown up talk! xxxxx' I do hope he appreciates it...I do hope we'll be alright!!
Well, I'm off home again today, talk more to the family and share the news, which should be fun!
Let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best and do our best...
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