Just, felt right

'I love you baby' he whispered in my ear while music played from the computer screen, the only light source within the room. We got carried away, the night wore on eventhough it felt like an explosion of passion and an undeniable rawness. I couldn't hide it, I held his face in my hands and said it back. It felt wonderful. It was truly a wonderful evening, as the past couple of days has been. It felt so good to say it out loud and really mean it. To course it's not the sort of thing I'd throw around into any old sentence and say to anybody. But, I'd felt the click I longed for and I wondered if he felt the same, or close... Because he can be mysterious, he doesn't say how he feels very often. I like to think he doesn't need to, I enjoy reading him. However sometimes it is nice to hear.

It really was an incredible evening, the sort ive really not experienced for a very long time. We had plans to go to a rock night together, we got dressed up and had rum at mine before venturing out. It got later and later, the music kept playing and somewhere in our merry haze we just forgot all about time. 

The night previous we met after work and watched a film at a much loved cinema of mine. It was about the life of Kurt Cobain, was brilliant. Afterwards we went for some delicious Indian food and then went bowling! We called it our 'date night' it was just so much fun. I felt like it was all a dream...

I just feel this childlike rush with him, it's an excitable, giddy wave that I can't fight - I just want to do everything all the time, always with him! And it just feels, right. 

We booked a holiday together in September, I am so excited already!!