My tongue is the only muscle in my body that works harder than my heart...

Not feeling too well today, I feel 'delicate' is the best way to describe it. I still feel as though I'm just generally on the brink of tears, just wish I knew what I was doing or what I should be doing. I think I'm just worn down, been burning the candles at both ends as per. 
Urgh.
Last night he came over fairly late, in an almost typical 'booty call' way, which was kinda fun I guess. It was nice to see him although, I still can't seem to put my finger on what it is that is making me feel the way that I am. Why can't I just throw myself into this? I mean, I am as best as I can. However, I feel as though I should be doing more somehow. I suppose I'm just waiting for the 'click.' 
He suggested going to see my family this weekend, he seems very keen to do this. I'm not so much, for some reason. I love my family and I think they are a fair representation of me, but, maybe this is part of it. Inviting him in. Dad says it would be a good idea as he still remembers Joe a lot and feels that this makes him a lil biased about things. Meeting Chris and putting a face to his name will help with his advise and such. I do agree of course. 
Dad then told me that he had told my brother a couple of days ago that I was upset and unable to get over things. He suggested maybe he messaged him on Facebook just to let him know that I missed him as a friend. I love this idea, however, I'm not sure what good it would do. You see, now I'm at the stage where I have no idea what he thinks or feels so I can kinda make up my own mind, think what I like. If it's thrown out there he could return the emotions, or, ignore them completely which would be more upsetting. It could open up communication between me and him again which I would like very much. However, I worry it might confuse me and cause me to go off my current relationship. Maybe make the same mistakes all over again, if he let me. I just don't know. I keep thinking of writing him something, maybe calling him, but for what? I know we've both got to move on with our lives. It is vital...