Urgh, spent most of today sat on my backside. It doesn't feel great, to look at the time and see that really, I haven't really accomplished all that much. I wish I didn't feel so lost and directionless. I keep getting these different forces pulling and tugging at me, different ways but I'm just not sure which way I should go. I do want to give nursing a proper try, of course. But I think it's going to be really hard as I doubt I'll hear anything from the application I took a fair while over. Sigh.
I feel generally a bit run down, I decided to come off this pill I was taking, for safety really. But the changes I saw in my body were almost instant, feeling low, constantly thirsty, hungry, putting on weight, skin changing, feeling a lot slower. I thought that I should go to a doctor and just stopped taking it. Then I had another period come, just 2 weeks after my 'proper' one and it just feels never ending...I'm a bit worried to be honest.
And tomorrow I'm back at work and it's sure to be another one of those slow days where I hardly do anything and yet I have to look busy. I don't know if I can do it for much longer.
Well, in which case, I should go and do something about it! I always do this, especially after a day or two alone without really talking to anyone. Get really bogged down, uninspired and unmotivated. But really, I know I've got the drive within me, I can do all sorts of things I put my mind to!
I feel the urge to make Chris something again but I'm not sure what...
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