In our eyes

I remember starting an entry once with 'welcome into my life' after first meeting lee, but I realise the phrase is much more appropriate to Chris. This, really feels as though it could be something very special. This feels as though it could be 'it', but as exciting as this is, it also makes me feel a bit scared too. Because the more I see him and spend time with him, the more hurt im going to be if it all ends. I know ive just got to trust him, and trust what we have, eventhough it is early days...

Last night after I finished work he picked me up from the station at his and we went to a restaurant in the town. We talked lots over gin and tonics and giggled over starters, talked about sexuality and how labels generally make us feel. I enjoyed how open he was to me about it all, it encourages me to be the same which is how it should be. He told me how he'd been come onto before by guys in the past, how he's been involved in drinking games where friends have admitted threesomes, just all sorts of interesting lil things which I found insightful and intriguing. I admired that it was something you could never really say never to, how it's sexuality is a spectrum, not black and white and how it's only human to be curious. It's weird really but ive never felt threatened by sexuality and people's opinions to it, but then that's probably because I wouldn't turn down the opportunity to experiment if it was laid down to me on the table! 

We were going to see a movie but decided to go back to his and drink whisky instead, the maple variety I bought a little after Christmas. We shared it with his mum and stepdad, the lovely people they are, and went upstairs and watched Spaced. It was just so lovely. Just, perfect. 

We had passionate sex until the small hours, there's just something so magical about his ways, he just seems to know the rhythm of my body so well! We awoke this morning and talked about our dreams, he made me breakfast and we watched YouTube videos. We made the most of an empty house, ordered pizza and played games. It was just, a really lovely day. I could easily spend every day like I had today.

Tomorrow I'm going to go for a run, just put shoes on and run!