Live in hope

Well, I've had a nice evening. Finished work, met up with olive for ramen noodles and mince pieces with mulled wine watching a Christmas classic; 'elf.' Ok, I was a bit too old for it, but it was nice to be doing something a bit different and getting into the festive swing of things. He does make me smile. But it's weird, it's like he's just too much. I really like it and find him very attractive when he's talking about work and partying, all that jazz but when in the cinema he just couldn't keep his hands off me and he was kissing me at any given opportunity. I mean, I wasn't rude about it but I wasn't giving off any of these signals. Ah well. I think I did the right thing by going home, I can't invite him into the complete farce that is my current relationship situation. 

I was excited about lee and still am, but there's still this whole playing it cool thing going on and it really puts me on edge. Although, all these entries support this haha tell me something I don't know! But yeah, ah well. Just going to try and keep myself nice and busy. I'm only working one day next week, and then I'm home for Christmas which im really looking forward to. I know it'll wear off shortly after my arrival but it'll be good to catch up with ed. 

I highly doubt I'll see Lee before but I do hope so. Im going to try and get his present about half way sorted tomorrow, I hope it won't be too lame, or try hard. I want it to be cool, slick and effortless yet thoughtful all at the same time.

Hmm. Is it possible? 

I'll go to the gym in the morning for the first time in over a week im sure, which will be interesting and probably horrible! I'm sure I'll feel better for it afterwards though. I hope so.