'Hey I just tried calling because I didn't want to do this over text because I feel awful doing so! I'm so sorry but I can't do tonight. I didn't realise how much stuff I have yet to do, I'm in super early tomorrow and running uk operations as all my bosses are off? Can we see each other right after Christmas though? IM SO SORRYYYYY! I'll think of a way of making it up to you. Xx'
'WHY ARE YOU SO ADORABLE?! I'm at the office probably til 10ish. I have missed a bunch of deadlines. Can we have a little fake Christmas before new year? I would never normally cancel this late but my bosses are massively on my back. I'm really really sorry :( I feel awful. Xx'
The thing is, these are just words, he could be saying anything to Palm me off and get out of his hair. I just wish he'd say though instead of making me feel a complete and utter twat. The entire time I've known him, ive just dropped everything like a hat for him, longed to hear from him, hung on to every last word. Why? What the fuck has he ever done for me besides disappointing me? I've not felt this way for a long time. Lovesick. Urgh. Fucking shit.
The last guy to make me feel this awful on Christmas was Ben and he was a very bad man. Warning signs phoebe!? If you ever needed any other advise or hints, there it is. Right there. That's it. Aeroplane mode is on, I'm going home, throwing on my comfy clothes and watching the green mile. Maybe have a good cry too. Get it all out of my system ready to try and forget all about him and enjoy Christmas. I've got to let him go. I've got to let him go. I've got to let him go.
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