Spoilt...

Dejavu. 

Yes, these thoughts and feelings feel oh so familiar to me, eventhough in pains me to admit it. I just, dearly need to get a grip. For some reason, ive really fallen for this guy but, why? Really Phoebe? I think it's time we started breaking this down because it's getting out of hand. 

Ok. So, it appeared as though it was the perfect balance of sex and personality. We hit it off right away, got on so well, talked about so many things. We had a connection physically, sexually, and I really don't feel as though it was one way at all. I like to think I can surprise people with that sort of thing, and I think it all went down well. But, how long has it been? Maybe a month and a half, not even two. What do you really expect at this point? I don't have much point of reference when it comes to stuff like this, but really, what does he owe you? Sure you'd like for him to be more keen, I mean the last person you were properly with was olive and he was full. On. But that wasn't an attractive quality. At this way you really long to see lee, he's leaving this gap so you have more to talk about when you do see each other. 

It's because I've nothing else to distract me that ive found myself hooked on his responses, and it really does feel as though the very opposite is going on for him right now. I don't know him well at all, but I do know what work is kicking off for him, he said earlier today that although he couldn't meet tomorrow, he'd like to in the week (he didn't have to say that if he didn't want to,) people at his work have been fired, next is his promotion...maybe he's deliberately distancing himself. 

Whatever his reasons, are his reasons and there isn't much you can do right now. Not after only a few weeks knowing each other, it's so, so stupid. I was getting all het up about him needing to put more hours in, all this sort of thing, but really? I just need to be cool. This isn't game over just yet. In my gut, I know he likes me, I know we share good times together, I know he wants to see me but too much else is going on right now. It sucks, buts it's ok. It's fine. He's completely in his right, as are you absolutely in your right to feel sad about it. 

GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT. You're a good person. You work hard, you're thoughtful and caring and unlike any other person, and the best way about going about all of this is to be completely and utterly reasonable. 

He knows full well that he could probably be doing more, but he doesn't need to feel bad about it. By being calm and cool about it is much more attractive that blowing up about it, eventhough it may be very tempting.

You are a very good judge of character and I do feel like I know him and I know his situation. I also know what I'm like and I get needy when I just want someone to be mine. I'm used to getting my own way all the time but sometimes things can take a while longer. 

There is a possibility that maybe this might fizzle out, but didn't you write before how you're ok with that because you've got the amazing memories? It's true, and I know that he'll always remember them too no matter what. I don't want to sound big headed but it's important to remind myself of these things otherwise I'll be carrying around all this upset over nothing. 

He is honest and you are fair. Be fair to him now. Don't let your sadness show, it's not even fair on you, gets your hopes up to be all let down and, really, nothing has been said. You're just seeing each other at the moment, these things happen and time is allowed to pass. The ball is in his caught now, just be gracious and curtious. 

I do think we could have something and I don't want to spoil it, I dearly dearly don't....