I'm surrounded by couples and people who seem to know exactly what they're doing and what they want from their lives. I still feel so lost as to what to do, where I am, where im meant to be going. I seem to knowingly be straying the correct path.

I chat to these nice people, let them do what they want, I'm curious, I want a taste but really I know who it is I really want but he doesn't seem to give too much of a shit about me really. I thought he did, and when im with him he seems to, it's just he's so terrible at texting me...it's not meant to be a big deal but it is for me, I guess I want to know he's thinking about me too. But then, I know his phone is crap and it probably just doesn't cross his mind. I'm being silly really I know it. It's early days still, and he's got lots going on.hes also got lots going on in the future too workwise, maybe he wants to keep his distance a bit. Can you blame him? 

If he ever knew, he'd run a mile.